So, it’s been a while since my last post.  I have moved to TX and stayed with my folks for a while.  That was a good start.  I had to go in the hospital to come off the bipolar meds that the doc in VA put me on.  I wasn’t sure if I’d ever completely recover from that.  I am doing loads better now.  There are still times when I get overwhelmed and really sad, but that was happening before.  I think I am past the worst of it.

I guess one of the worst parts was missing so much work.  I feel like my boss has lost respect for me due to being out of work so much with these problems.  I know that there isn’t anything I can do about it, but there is still a sense of loss there.  I am working on getting back to being a good employee, but at this point I don’t really like what I’m doing anymore and the feeling that my boss isn’t happy with me doesn’t help.  I really want to give up on this job and just find something else, but there is a little part of me that says stick it out.  It will get better.  Maybe I should.  Probably should.

In other news, I found a new boy to hang out with.  He’s pretty cute and fun to hang out with for the most part.  There are, of course, things that I don’t like, but for the most part it’s nice having a boy that I feel like I can call mine.  It’s nice to not really be single anymore.  Not sure how long it will last, but who knows.  He could be the one, only time will tell.  I know that having him in my life has really helped with my healing.  He helped me get out of my mom’s house and into my place that I have been paying for.  He helped me pick out furniture and get the place livable.  I think he has done wonders for my well-being.  Good stuff.

Outside of those things, I feel like I’m slowly returning to normal.  I might even be able to do better than I have when I was in FL and VA.  That would be a good thing.  I’m attending weekly depression support group meetings and I’m sure that’s helping too.  I’ve met a couple of really good people through that group and need to work on developing those friendships.  I know that will make things better too.

I guess I also need to start setting fun goals for myself.  I think one of my first goals is to set aside money for travel.  I really want to see Europe, Australia, and some other places in the world.  That would be awesome.  Just a matter of time.  This life is mine to do with as I please and I have more resources now to do stuff that I want than at any other time in the past.  It’s time to take the horse by the reigns and get after it.

I hope all is well wherever you are and that you are safe, comfortable and loved.

Jeff

Today I am grateful for all those in my life who have helped make me who I am today.  To all the old friends and the new, thanks for being you!

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