So, it’s been a while since my last post. I have moved to TX and stayed with my folks for a while. That was a good start. I had to go in the hospital to come off the bipolar meds that the doc in VA put me on. I wasn’t sure if I’d ever completely recover from that. I am doing loads better now. There are still times when I get overwhelmed and really sad, but that was happening before. I think I am past the worst of it.
I guess one of the worst parts was missing so much work. I feel like my boss has lost respect for me due to being out of work so much with these problems. I know that there isn’t anything I can do about it, but there is still a sense of loss there. I am working on getting back to being a good employee, but at this point I don’t really like what I’m doing anymore and the feeling that my boss isn’t happy with me doesn’t help. I really want to give up on this job and just find something else, but there is a little part of me that says stick it out. It will get better. Maybe I should. Probably should.
In other news, I found a new boy to hang out with. He’s pretty cute and fun to hang out with for the most part. There are, of course, things that I don’t like, but for the most part it’s nice having a boy that I feel like I can call mine. It’s nice to not really be single anymore. Not sure how long it will last, but who knows. He could be the one, only time will tell. I know that having him in my life has really helped with my healing. He helped me get out of my mom’s house and into my place that I have been paying for. He helped me pick out furniture and get the place livable. I think he has done wonders for my well-being. Good stuff.
Outside of those things, I feel like I’m slowly returning to normal. I might even be able to do better than I have when I was in FL and VA. That would be a good thing. I’m attending weekly depression support group meetings and I’m sure that’s helping too. I’ve met a couple of really good people through that group and need to work on developing those friendships. I know that will make things better too.
I guess I also need to start setting fun goals for myself. I think one of my first goals is to set aside money for travel. I really want to see Europe, Australia, and some other places in the world. That would be awesome. Just a matter of time. This life is mine to do with as I please and I have more resources now to do stuff that I want than at any other time in the past. It’s time to take the horse by the reigns and get after it.
I hope all is well wherever you are and that you are safe, comfortable and loved.
Today I am grateful for all those in my life who have helped make me who I am today. To all the old friends and the new, thanks for being you!